[I finally felt like i got back to my normal self after I got raped this october, only to get raped again a few days ago. I brushed everything off the first day, but i became a huge mess and started pretending like it didnt happen. I was passed out when i got raped, but then i woke up and ended up passing out again. I keep telling my self that it was all a dream, but i know it wasn’t. I feel that if i accept it, then I’ll end up getting raped again and again. I don’t know what to do.]
It sounds like you’re still in shock right now, and that’s normal. Acknowledging what happened doesn’t have any effect on whether it will happen again. But at the same time, you don’t have to deal with this overnight. You’re afraid right now and fully acknowledging it is really scary. That’s okay. You can give yourself time, and you can handle this at your own pace. What I think, just from what little I know about you from this message, is that you are much stronger than you think. You’ve faced rape before, and you were able to get your life back. That’s incredible, and it tells me how strong and how brave you are.
How you handle this, and how you get your life back to what you want is up to you. Some people find that talking about it helps, and maybe it would help you too. But you don’t have to do anything that you don’t want to. There is no right or wrong way to deal with being raped. You can face this, when you’re ready, and you can heal from it. Please take care of yourself, and please let me know if I can help you at all.